375 posts tagged personal

No matter how much sleep I get, after being up for 30 minutes I become super exhausted and almost woozy from tiredness. It’s been like this for several weeks now and I seriously feel like death. Dx

I remember why I haven’t had my hair short in so long. It grows a whole freaking inch in under a month. ugh

These past few weeks on my cosplay fanpage, the days I post nothing I gain between 2-10 likes, but then the days I do post things I lose likes…. I try not to focus on the numbers but damn, this is fucking me up and discouraging me a little bit.

I’m skinny, but I’m rarely comfortable and confident with my body. People telling me they wish they had my body makes me feel guilty because I don’t like my body most days. I fatigue easily, require far too much food, my back is bad, my legs are room thin in comparison to my hips, my arms are skin and bone, I have so many stretch marks on my thighs and buttock that you’d confused me with a zebra, I can’t sustain muscle on my body without consuming 6000+ calories a day, etc. But every once in a while I find something good and I try to focus on that. Compliments from outsiders do nothing but make me upset I don’t feel the same way, for it to really take affect it has to come from the inside. #BodyImage #personal #health

I’m skinny, but I’m rarely comfortable and confident with my body. People telling me they wish they had my body makes me feel guilty because I don’t like my body most days. I fatigue easily, require far too much food, my back is bad, my legs are room thin in comparison to my hips, my arms are skin and bone, I have so many stretch marks on my thighs and buttock that you’d confused me with a zebra, I can’t sustain muscle on my body without consuming 6000+ calories a day, etc. But every once in a while I find something good and I try to focus on that. Compliments from outsiders do nothing but make me upset I don’t feel the same way, for it to really take affect it has to come from the inside. #BodyImage #personal #health

I am so done right now. I feel like my family life is a big soap opera. My cousin Stacie’s bf is claiming my aunt kidnapped their kids because she took them after my cousin almost died of a heroin & crank combo OD in the hospital, called the police on my mother for “holding her against her will”, stole a bag of stuff from my mother’s(including my zune I’ve had for 6 years and can’t afford to get a new one) and overall just causing a big stink and ultimately fucking up her kids’ lives. The bf keeps trying to prove how “adult and mature” he is by saying he has an iphone 6 and just bought the girls(who are 3 and 7) iphone 5s to go with their ipads, meanwhile calling me “kid” and cursing at me in paragraph long run-one sentences.

Mind you this is on a public facebook post that he made, and now he’s saying my comments should be deleted because they’re making her seem like a bad mother…. :/ not to forget that his initial comment was “your mother is kidnapping the girls.” I can;t even fucking deal with this right now.

My mom had tried taking her to a rehab center but they refused to take her because of her health insurance. Police don’t give a shit and insist they go back to the parents even though it’s a terrible environment. Granted, my aunt(their grandmother) probably isn’t the best person to be taking care of them anyway, but it would be better than where they are now.

I seriously don’t know how I’ve survived this long on my own. My first thought when hearing a strange clanking upstairs at 12am was that someone was breaking into my apartment to kill me….

it was rain hitting the window.

My Ships ›

I’m making a master post of all of my ships because reasons. If there’s a fandom you know I’m a part of that’s not listed here, let me know what it is and it will be added. :) I just kind of threw some random ones in there to get it started. lol

I have a problem with letting items go and throwing them away because I don’t want to be wasteful, but then I just end up with so much clutter and ugh. I have a lot of things with sentimental value(clothing, random gifts, nerdy memorabilia, etc.) because of this I feel, but it doesn’t change the fact that I have too much stuff and I need to get rid of it.

These past few months I’ve been going through my stuff over and over again trying to cut back and even though I’ve probably halved what items I had(and this is nonessential stuff) I feel like I’m not making any progress. Dx I just want to have a clean apartment without random shit taking up space. Ugh.

Already got people on my cosplay page telling me they don’t think I can pull off Perona and Nami from One Piece when I said I wanted to cosplay them.

lolol ok I’m still gonna do them, tho.

Borrowing my mom’s car while I figure out the situation with my tags. Car dies in the middle of the road…. :|

my luck with cars…. I couldn’t make this up if I tried…… >_o

Anonymous said: what is your secret to having flawless skin because jfc i am so jealous of you

Truth is I was born with good skin. Like, I technically have a combination skin type(both oily and dry in places), but it’s very mild. All I use is a basic oil free face wash in the shower and  moisturizer afterward. But I’ve never had any more than 3 pimples at a time and the only “blemishes” I have are actually just freckles…. lol And that’s simple because that’s how my skin is. Sorry I can’t be of more help. :(

I think at this point,most of my possessions are clothing (including costumes )…. I’m really needing to downsize on my overall amount of THINGS so I’m going to be getting rid of lots of stuff…. clothing, fabric, figures, etc.

Anything worth selling I’ll probably post about, but most things are likely going to goodwill or the dumpster. I need to let go of a lot of stuff I’ve been holding onto for far too long..

Awwww. Dad Makes His Goth Girl Feel At Home In This Charming Home Improvement Ad ›

This commercial really hits home for me. My sister and I went through some dark times in our childhood and in our teens we explored gothic styles and really clung to them. As you could imagine, we faced a lot of the disapproving stares and opinions of others, which just made us feel really excluded from other kids our age.

Our mother was very supportive, though. She was very encouraging of our unique styles even to the point of dressing in it herself sometimes and decorating the house year round. And when I got into cosplay, she would go with me to conventions and even haggle with dealers to get me the best deals on my figures and comics… lol

We were very lucky, and I can only hope other parents do the same for their children with whatever unique styles they have. And I really wanted to share this commercial because it’s really sweet and this is how you should parent!! xD

casually considering cutting off all my hair into a pixie cut before sac this weekend lmao

After my closing shift at work I decided I was too lazy to make food so I stopped by mcdonalds on my way home. As I pull into the parking lot I see a teenager riding his bike in circles in front of the drive through. I wait for him to move before driving forward, but before I can even get to order he pulls up next to my window and waves at me. I give him a no nonsense glare and motion for him to continue on. He keeps trying to get me to roll down my window to talk to him,and when I continue to ignore and wave him on, he gets frustrated, flips me off, and rides away. Me, as mature as ever, flips him off with both hands while mocking him with an exaggerated expression on my face.

Ended up pulling up to the first window and told the employee there. He apologized to me that it happened, called the kid a douche bag, and gave me extra pickles on my burger. Lol